Rain. I hate the goddamn rain.
The dead woman I don’t mind so much.
Murder with so little flair is passé. If it weren’t for how beautiful this woman had been no one would have given a second thought to her being stabbed in the street. But with the obvious expense she had gone to to do herself up it warranted all the big guns. Sirens, cameras, tape and media. Let the circus begin.
Does that make me the ringleader or the clown? Perhaps I can be that lout with the whip trying to tame the lion. Or maybe I am the lion. With the way my head feels now it would make sense.
“Christ man, what a waste. Why kill this girl?”
The forensics team has arrived and they feel the need to add irrelevant blather to my list of problems.
“For all the same reasons that any human kills another human.”
Cue the dumfounded look of a scientist who only understands test tubes, slides and DNA. These people understand humans on a molecular level, all the little bits and pieces that actually make them substantial in a physical way. They understand the crude matter. Forensics people spend their lives studying humans, not human nature. Motive is something they will never get.
Turning to the collector of all those little pieces that amount to the truth of humanity in a court of law I can’t help but feel exhausted. It is my job to understand the reason and their job to understand the method but like all humans these too desire to be the thing they are not.
“Money, love, rage, jealousy, fear, loneliness, impotence, hate, lust…” I look into the blank face and know that the truth is not getting through. “None of these are the reason this woman is dead though.”
I walk away knowing this case will come to nothing. This woman is dead and I will never find the killer.
“So what is the reason?”
He just had to ask.
Feeling the rain hot on my face I know the answer to that question without a second’s hesitation. It has been staring me in the face from the first moment I laid eyes on the body. This wasn’t a crime of passion. This wasn’t even planned. This was a crime of circumstance. It was totally spontaneous. She was killed for standing out at exactly the wrong moment in exactly the wrong place.
“He killed her because she was remarkable and because he could.”